Posted by: Erin | April 6, 2018

Things I hate right now.

I hate the sound of someone clearing their throat.

I hate the sound of spitting – because cancer has taken away their ability to swallow anything, even their own saliva.

I hate that I know the names of a good portion of the nurses, nurses aides, personal care aides on the palliative care floor of the Tom Baker Cancer Centre/ Foothills Hospital.

I hate that I know how to start a tube feed.

I hate feeling sad.

I hate crying every single fucking day.

And I hate that this is pretty much my only place to vent.

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Responses

  1. Also I hate the snow and I hate the cold. For the love of puppies! I need springtime!

  2. Seriously. So. Fucking. Tired of listening to someone try to spit. The sound makes my stomach turn. And then I feel guilty for being angry about listening to someone try to spit. But it’s so fucking gross. And it makes me want to cry thinking about why he has to do it. But I can’t cry because I just might not stop and how helpful would that be. Fuck. My. Fucking. Life!


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